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Todays note is me rambling. There was so much revelation brought to me today just through sheer conversation with a friend. So Lord I bring this to you. I realized today that I have a false sense of pride. It came through realizing that I want to be so humble that I lack the confidence to be who I am. There is a sense of humbling ones self to Jesus, in which he instills a righteous confidence. I used to be the first one up the altar when it came for asking for prayer and now I am the last one, because I dont want people thinking that I dont have it all together! I dont have it all together. That is such a lie from the enemy, although God has instilled in me the values and HIS power I am still human and have to daily die to myself. This flesh is constantly in a war for my spirit. But God is in control and he is in charge of me. Spirit! SUBMIT TO JESUS!!! Come into alignment with the plans and purposes of GOD. I expect nothing less than obedience to him. His grand plan is to mold me into his image and I think sometimes I am too easily distracted by all the things around me that I forget to "check" myself so that he can "reflect" himself in me.
The kids are growing so much. Sometimes I cant believe that I am even a mom and I have almost 7 years experience at it. Adrianna is growing into such a novel young lady. She is well mannered....Boy, did that take awhile!! WHEW. She is memorizing scripture and is loving her new school at Eugene Christian School. She even wants to be baptized. I am so blessed to be her Mama.
Esperanza is already 4 almost 5 soon. And she wants to be more grown up than she is. She is such a charmer and although I am dealing with attitudes in her, she really does have a heart to please. She loves to sing for Jesus and loves to share. She has such a beautiful heart and she lights a room up when she walks into it.
Blessings for today!
Shayna

Mexican Feeling

While driving in the car today, and listening to music is spanish, she said all so matter of fact, Daddy always feel Mexican, but I dont always feel Mexican, it made me laugh so much. Then later she was whining and when asking her why she was crying and whining when her nightlight wasnt bright enough, She replied....MOM, I cry because things are wrong and I want them fixed. Isnt that the truth, so often we whine and cry because we want them fixed right now. I know that there are hardships in my life that I whine about, but it is a bit different for me, because it is the hardships that mature me. She is fortunate that her only complaint is that her nightlight isnt bright enough. Years from now that will be the least of her concerns. Good night Pelancha! Te quiero mucho y que tengas buenas suenos.